Something I realized today about getting rid of my facebook account is that I don't want to see your public persona anymore. I just want to see you.
As I was walking through the library, looking at all the books I wish I could stop and read, I thought of my future. I thought, "What if I never get to read all these books? What if it happens because I never give myself time to read? What if later never comes?" I realized how appealing the thought of just sitting and reading is. I thought of you by your window with a book. I thought of how much I'd like to be there too.
I want silence, and stability, and love.
I want knowledge, and affection, and understanding.

I don't know if I'll ever get these things from you, but at least you're helping me figure out what I need and what I want and where to go to get it.

My friend's brother called me a loner, but I don't want to be. Sometimes that's just how things turn out.